I really really have the utmost respect for anyone who can hold a relationship over the internet/ phone/ military and really MEAN it..

I'm not talking about a simple way to cure your desperation.. but a Real love that is willing to wait months/ years to see that person you love.. It is so unbearable some nights!!
I am so lonley without her here!! Those precious moments I have beside her give me reason to keep on liveing.. Give this meaningless existence some purpose and joy!!
It's just hard some nights to see a couple enjoying their relationship nearby you.. when you are only reminded of your love.. DANG I wanted her tonight at the movies.... I know she would've loved it -_-

dammit why can't the world know true love! love like I am able to share with her.. if this world had more love then a peace would settle that would be unbreakable! I love Sunny more than my own life and would give every part of my being to be with her once again.. especially on a night like tonight... a night where I have to turn-over in bed and find myself alone again...
I want to feel her warmth.. to see her smile... to pull her hair away from her eyes and kiss her again...to be able to just know by the look in her eyes that I am not alone anymore.. A love I know that will last far after I have died..

but tonight I cannot have that... I wait in the darkness of my room and imagine how much happiness I've had with her.. and know that I'll soon have her in my arms again.. call me a hopeless romantic but people just don't know how much a privledge it is to see your love on a daily basis.. When people like us meet we know the true value of being around that loved one.. and just how precious moments are with one-another when tomorrow maybe the last.. December I'll have her again and I'll feel like a complete person again.. but untill then its another cold night as i try to imagine her beside of me..
It's so hard to let you GO! everytime I see you it gets worse.. I remember holding you under the moon in your backyard that night before I had to leave... I have never wept so hard in my life.. haveing to board a bus while watching you walk away from me.. If only that moment had lasted forever! if only I could hold you forever safe in my arms..
I love you Sunny more than anything this world could possibly give me! And I'll keep waiting untill I see you again... because love is worth a lifetime of that.. Forever babe.. I cannot wait for that smile that belong's only to me ;-; even when we're too old todo notheing but count the wrinkles of each-other faces...Love!.. is... Eternal!!

If you know what im going through... please feel free to share.. sometimes it feels good to let it out ^_^;;

sorry about this.. I'm just sad tonight...
___ Ryoku_____